day just dipped down
Mar. 2nd, 2003 09:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lincolnkwFor the last couple of years my Nana has been on a downward spiral healthwise, mentally, everything. She's been in a nursing home for years now, we visited her over the holidays and she just wasn't there anymore. The family has prepared ourselves for her eventual demise.
At 6:35 this morning she died.
Viewing on Tuesday, funeral Wednesday.
This means (and, yes this extremely shallow of me, but keep in mind I only met her, for the first time since I was a little kid, last year) I have to find something to wear and get the time off at work. the clothes are minor. The work thing could be bad, the LP training is Tuesday the Audit School is Wednesday.
I should probably be more broken up over this but I never really had the chance to know her when she was actually her. I met her a couple of times. Once when I was seven adn again when I was 14. At those ages when you meet someone for a few days it doesn't really mesh with you. She has always been Mom's mom. Nana. Occasional phone calls and letters at the holidays. It may come across as callous but I honestly think she's better off now. Will be keeping that thought to myself this week.
At 6:35 this morning she died.
Viewing on Tuesday, funeral Wednesday.
This means (and, yes this extremely shallow of me, but keep in mind I only met her, for the first time since I was a little kid, last year) I have to find something to wear and get the time off at work. the clothes are minor. The work thing could be bad, the LP training is Tuesday the Audit School is Wednesday.
I should probably be more broken up over this but I never really had the chance to know her when she was actually her. I met her a couple of times. Once when I was seven adn again when I was 14. At those ages when you meet someone for a few days it doesn't really mesh with you. She has always been Mom's mom. Nana. Occasional phone calls and letters at the holidays. It may come across as callous but I honestly think she's better off now. Will be keeping that thought to myself this week.
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Date: 2003-03-02 07:29 pm (UTC)Re:
Date: 2003-03-02 09:09 pm (UTC)And I like that icon. She looks dangerous.
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Date: 2003-03-03 05:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-03-02 07:34 pm (UTC)*hugs you* just cause.
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Date: 2003-03-02 09:10 pm (UTC)thanks Sweetness.
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Date: 2003-03-02 09:12 pm (UTC)My Dear Lincoln.
Date: 2003-03-02 08:25 pm (UTC)You will be in my mind even more than commonly. Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you during this difficult time.
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Date: 2003-03-02 08:59 pm (UTC)Honestly just the fact that she's finally at rest is enough for me. She hasn't really been a person for so long now that I honestly think most of the family is going to be relieved. She was just a husk wit hthe spirit hanging on for some reason. The later it gets tonight the more maudlin I'm getting, I'm listening to to as much humorous folk music as I can right now.
Once again. Thank you.
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Date: 2003-03-03 01:51 am (UTC)I lost all my grandparents by the time I was 16. The last was Miss Mildred, my dad's stepmom. I was very close to her, and still miss her like crazy.
I'm sorry for your loss, even though you didn't get a chance to know her well.
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Date: 2003-03-03 06:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-03-03 07:44 am (UTC)*hugs Lincoln*
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Date: 2003-03-03 09:23 am (UTC)